II. Killing my feelings
I killed my feelings, not all of them, but the ones that were bringing me down. I overcame most of my fears too, except one, which is the fear of losing someone I love, that's why I worked on killing my love for pretty much everyone around me. They stay, they go, I don't care anymore. I killed the love I carried inside me by making sure that I never forget how badly I felt when the ones I loved gave up on me so easily and just left, that I never forget how much I gave, for how long I stood up for them. I am not talking about a specific person here who just left, I am also talking about friends, friends can break your heart too. There was a specific person who had a very special place inside my heart, who knew all of weakness points, all about my trust issues, all of my fears, a person whom I loved truthfully, whom I was pushing myself to exceed my limits just to make proud, whom blew away all of that for no reason. This blo...