IV. Today Is My Birthday
Will it be remarkable if I commit suicide on my birthday? I have put this question into my consideration a while ago but.. Is it time to put the idea into action? I am not capable of discussing my mental health state with anyone anymore, maybe because I’m embarrassed by it or what people will think of me. It often becomes awkward and some people even stop talking to me altogether. Some don’t get it. That’s okay. There’s a lot of illnesses I don’t understand either. Some get annoyed: ‘How can you be sad, what do you have to be sad about, you have a great life. You have me, isn’t that enough for you?’ That's why I stopped talking about it and explaining why I am not okay. And now I want to end my unexplainable miser, but I think I will end up with a dismal failure and I won't be able to actually do it. I don’t know how much longer I can go on. I’m a very sick person and I need help, but t...